No. As with all things in life, there’s nuance. Your body is different than mine. While I don’t have an inherently addictive physiology, I quickly went from practicing moderation to using everyday, to quite literally never being truly sober. And I stopped myself a few times in the beginning - I knew I was slipping, and I held myself accountable and would be better for a time. Until eventually I forgot or was too apathetic, I can’t remember honestly
Op, please read this.
A long time ago, I went through this. The details don’t matter so much because our situations aren’t the same. But I fell deep into addiction for a few years because I was dealing with several issues - some of which I’ve always dealt with and will continue to do so, others were temporary.
I still have to face the problems I did before, but now I have the occasional craving. Before, I would lie in bed or sleep if I was going through a depressive episode for a few weeks / months. Now, I want to burn my savings until I black out or can’t remember why I started. Now, I get cravings if I use any kind of nasal spray. Now, I will dream of being high and will have cravings for the rest of the week.
If you can’t change what you’re going through, and you know you’ll be dealing with it in the future, then why would you add more problems for your future self? The drugs I did were amazing until I came down, and they changed me. Some of the changes made me a better person due to the struggles and inconsistent clarity they presented, but some of the changes just made my suffering worse. Drugs will give you relief while you’re high. But all things come to an end, be it the high or your life. Practice safety, use testers, and research everything.
Op, this is it. The franchise has been around for decades and covers many historical eras. Recently they got into fantasy and did well with it, though personally I prefer the historical titles with the dynamic dueling.
Like Dr_Nik said, battles are either RTS style that you can choose to control, let ai take over and observe the battle instead, or you can autoresolve and skip a battle entirely. The overall gameplay is similar across each game, but the mechanics and ai behavior vary wildly across titles. If you don’t like one game, pick up another and you’ll probably love it
If you think being altruistic has to be worth something to do it, then you’re not an altruistic type of person. Being altruistic means doing what one believes is right and helping others regardless of any reward or value gained or lost.
I went through that for a few years once. You start to distrust yourself and your emotions, and the spiral only deepens. I remember all I would do is work, sometimes eat, sometimes shower, and go to bed. I was just a shell of a person, and I don’t want that for anyone. No one can truly understand unless they’ve had it. It was a long struggle, but I eventually made it out. I hope you do the same.
I currently have femoroacetabular impingements, a torn labrum in my left hip, back spasms, and nerve damage throughout my left leg. For my work, I have to pay bills and rent while medical-leave pay only covers 70% of my income. I can barely save enough as it is, so I keep working.
I’ve already had one surgery with two more expected, the final one ideally being a new hip. I’ll use my personal time for recovery and stretch it out with medical leave as needed, but I can’t afford to stop right now. Eventually I want to buy a house and marry my girlfriend.
I would go back and tell myself not to sacrifice certain things just to be high for the day. Don’t change the positive things in your life. You should always know you control a substance, don’t allow the drug to let you think you’re in control. When you start to think you have do something high that you wouldn’t if you were sober (e.g. hanging out with friends, spending the day with family, watching a movie, etc,) then that’s when you’re in very dangerous territory.