[鳳凰院 凶真 Hououin Kyouma]|[alt: 黃家駒 Wong Ka Kui]

(He/Him/佢/他)
美籍華人 Chinese American

Native Speaker of:
粵語/廣東話 Cantonese
国语/普通话 Mandarin
台山話 Taishanese


alts: @WongKaKui@piefed.social


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  • No idea if they still have them, I don’t live in NYC anymore. NYC, even Brooklyn is expensive as hell, rent was going up. My parents barely managed to borrow money from close friends + some savings to be able to afford a house in Philly, where I’m now. The last time I’ve been to the library was… idk 4-6 years ago… I literally only go to libraries to use their computer or like I wanna skip school and chill a bit there so I don’t get home too early.

    When I was younger, I remember borrowing comics and stuff… I never actually wanted to read “books”.

    I was facing a lot of issues…

    On one hand, I barely know enough Chinese to read a Chinese book (except like a childrens book, which is just cringe for me, yes I know very hypocritical since I was a kid myself)

    On the other hand, my English wasn’t remotely good enough to read an English book.

    So like comics were the only thing I could read.

    As for the DVDs, I didn’t pick them, my parents did. And it was interesting enough for me, so I just watched it anyways since there wasn’t much to do. Early days I wasn’t allowed much computer time / internet time, when I did have more access, I wasn’t knowledged enough to find free stuff to watch. So its just TV shows in Mandarin from those DVDs. It probably helped with expanding my Mandarin skills for a bit longer, because like it soon atrophys when you don’t use it. I haven’t really spoken Mandarin for like… 15 years. Except rare circumstances when there was a Mandarin-speaking classmate. I kinda remember the pronunciations, but I’m gonna have to think in Cantonese, then convert it to Mandarin… so there’s a bit of a lag, sort of.









  • I’m Asian so living with family is the norm… (I’m a young adult, think lile college age, but I’m dealing with depression so college plans are on pause)

    But idk, I remember I had fun times with my mother when I was just a kid. Now… idk…

    So much depression from both trauma within the family, and trauma from outside (school… xenophobia/racism and bullying, and also political instability)

    I’m not alone, but I’m lonely.

    I have a older brother, but something happened years ago and we don’t vibe anymore. (sibling abuse, fighting…)

    I don’t really have friends, I’m not good at keeping friends… so… yeah…

    Not alone, just lonely.

    I have a cat, but I’m not a good owner, so my cat is kinda indifferent towards me, it’s my fault for not being in a good enough mental state to play with my cat. I kinda messed up this timeline, I wish I could go back to re-do it.